"Letting Go" Affirmations Jan 25, 2019 17:30:08 GMT -5
Post by Doug on Jan 25, 2019 17:30:08 GMT -5
1. I am learning to take life as it comes.
2. It's okay to let go and trust that things will work out.
3. I can relax and tolerate a little disorder and ambiguity.
These are a product of my anxious personality, my desire to control my environment and circumstance, and my inability to do so.
My anxiety level has been particularly high at the moment, dwelling on the snow. The snow, like who can control the w-eather? But I have an appointment on Tuesday with my counselor the day after a major snow event, 4-8 inches and bitterly cold and blowing. What can I do about that? I may need to postpone the appointment, but I don't want to, I really need to speak with my counselor. The w-eather isn't really even the issue, it is a side symptom of the larger problem.
Part of my stress lowering regime is to have a daily routine. That is something I can control, what I am doing with my time. Generally it is similar things day to day. Keeping stress low keeps me from being triggered into an anxiety episode or attack, and keeps my mood more even. I'm not saying that driving 45 minutes to the city in bad w-eather is not a big stressor for me, they don't keep up the roads out here rural where I live, so yeah...
The triggering event was December 30 when my dad started having stroke symptoms. Through days at the hospital and multiple trips to the city 50 miles away, they determined that it was not a stroke (thank God) but most likely a nerve impingement that might require complicated neurosurgery (Oh my God.) That was the catalyst that set up my anxiety, all of that produced a lot of disruption to my routine, and the potential for things happening that are not in my control. Now minor things are starting to bother me, like whether there will be a snowstorm that I cannot control on Monday (just one silly example).
I was reading in the Anxiety and Phobia Workbook about personality traits that lead to anxiety. I'm very detail oriented and I have a need to plan everything out and be prepared for all eventualities and when I can't I worry. I'm finding it very difficult to loosen up and just "go with the flow". I am anxious to some degree just about all of the time because of my need to be in control of my environment, and I can't be. Things happen in life that I can't control, so I struggle to deal.
Figuring that out, reading that, has been a breakthrough. I didn't realize that simple thing about myself. Now that I understand what one of my issues is I can work on fixing it. Because it is a personality trait I think that it will be very hard...
I'm trying to learn mindfulness and relaxation techniques, doing breathing exercises, doing physical exercise 4x a week, and trying to use affirmations (from CBT) to change my thinking. I want to speak with my counselor and find out what else I could do, where should I start?
During a snowstorm. Hey, if I have to reschedule because I am snowed in, what is there that I can do about that?