Last night we made something new. We had carrot noodles with garlic and scallions cooked with balsamic vinegar, then we had chicken with it, seasoned with garlic onion powder salt and pepper and some basalmic vinegar, lastly we had some fresh bread. It was pretty good. next time we will use a little less balsamic vinegar. Tonight were having sausages, peppers and onions with mashed potatoes.
tomorrow im going to make my cashew chicken (but im going to use peanuts not cashews this time) its made in the crockpot with chicken, scallions, i put in mushrooms even though its not on the recipe card, and then you put cream of mushroom soup on top. its so good- i hope it will be good with the peanuts instead of the cashews.
I had smoked sausage fried with cabbage, easy and I really like that meal. I also had fresh veggies on the side from my garden, zucchini and broccoli (raw) with ranch dressing on the side.
Doug, that sounds amazing. You always post stuff that sounds so yummy.
Tonight were having pasta with alfredo sauce, its a packet that you get from the frozen isle and can make on the stove or in the microwave. we are currently having a problem with our oven, it just smokes when we put it on. something must have gotten splashed on the top and bottom. Hopefully we can fix it soon.
I am not sure what we are going to have for dinner tonight. We have chicken out, but i dont really feel like cooking. I havent eaten at all today (i know thats not good for me) and bf has been at work and been very busy. I hope whatever we have it will be so yummy.
Thanks for the reply lswilliams. I did send her the birthday message, we messaged for like 2 responses each in which i let her know i had a present at my house for her. and she responded with "TY thats very sweet of you. just hold onto it. ill get it the next time im over." this tells me that i guess she is planning to talk to me again at somepoint. I was guessing she wouldnt talk to me till after the 2 weekends that she was doing those activities she wanted to do with me. I have survived without beating myself up too much about this whole thing, whats another week or two. All i can do is wait.
Hopefully things will turn around soon. I appreciate all your replies.
thanks for your replies. So far, she has not spoken to me since she told me she wanted space on the 14th. While i do respect her wish for space, i will be messaging her on wednesday as it is her birthday and even though she doesnt want to talk to me, im going to still wish her a happy birthday. I would be upset with myself if i didnt say it.
I dont think she will speak to me till after next weekend. and even then who knows. All i wanted was for her to understand how what she did made me feel. and I think she is too hung up on that she thinks she did nothing wrong or hurtful. I understand she doesnt see the problem, but how many times do i have to explain it for her to get it. Even something as simple as i dis agree but im sorry you feel hurt. i dont think im asking for much. especially when i explained to her a week prior about the first time she did it. and she said she understood. yet less than a week later does it again.
I do miss her though, even though she seems to have no awareness how her actions make people feel. I keep re reading the last messages we sent and blaming myself, even though i dont think its wrong for me to have told her how i felt.
im having a really hard time at the moment- in general but also with someone who is supposed to be my best friend.
A little back story- I was best friends with her bf, he wasnt a really good friend because if he said something i didnt like, he would cut me out of his life for months at a time. His way or no way basically. i was persistent though and always blamed myself, when in fact i hadnt done anything wrong. He decided to stop being my friend sometime after I started dating my boyfriend (who i have now been with since 2010) becuase he "doesnt like him" (even though he doesnt know him really and wont take the time to get to know him). We tried to do double dates and eventually this guy stopped being my friend.
His girlfriend came up from down south and her and i became friends. later on she turned into my best friend. We talk about everything pretty much and we talk almost every day.
Our troubles started a few months ago when she asked me to "do what we did last year" for her birthday (which was go to the beach and then she would sleep over). Her birthday is at the end of this month. I obviously agreed, and this year it would be just her and i at the beach (not with my bf) because she wanted some girl time- which is perfectly okay. We made these plans either the end of February or the beginning of march. We were going to go on her birthday, but when i started my new job the 3rd of april, i suggested we went the weekend before or the weekend after as i had to work her birthday. She said that would work and we went on with our day to day lives.
about 3 weeks ago i saw in her calendar (we shared our google calendars with eachother to see when the other person was working) that she had put "Beach" on the weekend before her birthday. I text her and asked if that was when she wanted to go with me, to which she replied no, she was going with her other friend and their boyfriends. I told her how it made me feel- upset becuase thats what we were supposed to do. when i told her this she said that it was the only time the 4 of them could go. I said i wish she had of just told me instead of finding out on the calendar, but i understand how hard it is to coordinate 4 peoples schedule.
a week after this conversation i saw another event in the calendar "sleep over with (insert same friend who she was going to beach with here)" Yesterday, i communicated with her how it made me feel. That it really sucked that she was doing the exact 2 things she asked to do with me with someone else, and that i thought it was kind of mean/unfriendly because we were supposed to do those two things, and when i have previously asked her when we could hang out to celebrate her birthday, one time she told me "in july" and the other time she said "well i just dont know because i have a lot of things planned". she didnt understand where i was coming from, that i jsut wanted to spend some time with her to celebrate. I just want her to communicate things with me, and i just want to be heard and for her to take some responsibility and see how what she did could be hurtful.
today she text me and told me she wanted space. I will respect her space as i would want someone to do if i asked for it. She then sent me a book of a text saying how i made her upset (atleast she communicated i guess) and she didnt do anything wrong, then also she was upset becuase i said what she did was mean. While i do think she did some hurtful things/didnt communicate with me, i took some of the blame and said i could have asked her more when we could hang out (even though the multiple times)
I know i can do without the negativity in my life, but im finding it hard to stop caring as much because we talk a lot and i think im afraid to not have that.
thanks for letting me rant. i feel so exhausted with this added to all of the other things i have going on.
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Doug: Ack. 20mg Prednisone feels like 5 cups of coffee all night long. Hmm, slept 4 hours total, happened to be when Jan texted... darn. On the bright side I think my car is fixed.
Aug 30, 2017 12:55:34 GMT -5
JaN: Have a awful totally awful cold soar I use to get them from stress but this one is different it is burning something horrible hope it goes away going to car wash for cashier job hope I get it its for weekends and has a stool to sit on too
Sept 3, 2017 4:41:16 GMT -5
Doug: Good luck at the job Jan!
Sept 3, 2017 13:30:42 GMT -5
JaN: Thanks ((((* D * )))) I called first cause the place is totally busy and the woman who does the hiring wasn't there mad at myself cause she told me to call back I got busy a lil and forgot but she said nobody has hardly showed up to inquire calling today
Sept 5, 2017 4:12:17 GMT -5
inky: im here in the chat if anyone wants to join
Sept 9, 2017 11:17:19 GMT -5
inky: alright guys, i have a dryer being delivered so i have to run, i hope everyone is having a great weekend!
Sept 9, 2017 13:02:12 GMT -5
Doug: I came last week, really! I had my mom's birthday celebration with family at the zoo today, I'm sorry I couldn't make it! We really need to make a time when we can come for Inky, that should be on the agenda at least. Saturday at 12 is very hard to make
Sept 9, 2017 19:47:08 GMT -5
Doug: I know how it is to come to chat and nobody comes, I have done that too and I feel bad that everyone keeps missing you. And being a guy, I want to FIX it. Any time you come and want to chat PM me, or if you know ahead PM me and I will make the effort
Sept 9, 2017 19:50:39 GMT -5
Doug: It doesn't need to be during a set chat time, we can chat any time. I am rarely too busy except when the chat times are set it seems like.
Sept 9, 2017 19:51:43 GMT -5
inky: thats so kind Doug. i know saturdays are hard, its alright, no big deal promise.
Sept 10, 2017 8:59:30 GMT -5
Doug: Hey all check out my pictures in the thread in Off Topic about me going to Detroit!
Sept 22, 2017 13:10:45 GMT -5
inky: anyone here and want to chat?
Sept 30, 2017 10:03:00 GMT -5
Doug: Crud, we missed inky for chat again? I was there the previous week, no takers. I was at my nieces soccer game on Saturday, and lunch with my sister. Sorry we didn't connect, maybe next time?
Oct 2, 2017 9:07:31 GMT -5
inky: Dont worry Doug, it happens.
Oct 4, 2017 19:03:01 GMT -5
Doug: Hello! To All! I'm around today to chat if anybody is here. I'll leave it up for a while, just cleaning up my bedroom whilst I wait.
Oct 7, 2017 11:38:34 GMT -5
Doug: I built a $20 Walmart desk this morning and I'm rearranging some things so I will have more space to use, blasting Tom Petty on the sound system.
Oct 7, 2017 11:40:05 GMT -5
Doug: 9.5 hour playlist on Random, I am so sad he died.
Oct 7, 2017 11:40:43 GMT -5
Doug: I'm so tired of being tired, Sure as night will follow a day, Most things I worry about Never happen anyway -- Tom Petty, I Keep Crawlin' Back to You
Oct 7, 2017 11:56:01 GMT -5